To whom it may concern,
I feel that our friendship is on the brink of extinction. I feel as if our relationship is one sided and maybe I should let it go. I understand that things change, priorities change but this is not where our problems lies. You attitude is a disease upon our friendship. I have been hanging on to, trying to repair, and upset about us, but the more I think about it, I am not sure why, and I don't think I care.
For over a year, you have made me uncomfortable being around. I can't even explain it. For someone who talks about how much friends mean to you, you haven't been much of one for a while. I know you have gone through a lot this year, that is why I have spent every Friday night of the last year on your porch listening to you. I know now that what you want is someone to validate your feelings and tell you you are right, and not offer any helpful advice. I am sorry, that is not me. I will listen, but I will always tell you what I think and try to help. I am sorry that it wasn't what you were looking for. I think the main barrier to us communicating is that you expect me to say something or act a certain way because of my attitudes in the past, and when i do not say those things or act that way, you hear it that way anyway. You get mad at things I did not say, and we argue over whether or not they happened, because that is the way you heard it, but it is not the way it happened. As far as the things that you think happened 2 years ago, you should have said something then, because I think I remember the conversation too, but holy fuck, it was 2 years ago.
I guess it boils down to you not liking me as a person, because you can stop being friends with me because you don't like what I have to say, but you can continue to be friends with the person that you felt like was endangering your child. I am good enough to watch your kid for 6 months for free, but not be friends with. However she is not good enough to watch you child, but since she agrees with everything you have to say, she is good enough to be your friend. That is pretty warped.
I think that you are one of the most selfish people I have ever met. Things only happen the way you want them to. Our conversations are composed of what is going on with you. I have gone over and beyond what any other friend would have ever done for you, and when I ask for help you tell me not to hold my breath. I honestly have no fucking clue why am trying to hang on to this relationship. All of my close friends tell me to quit thinking about it, that you are not worth it, but it is hard. We have had so many good times in the past, but I think those are long gone. I am tired of having my feelings hurt, because I don't feel like you care about me as much as other friends. I am tired of being the one giving and giving without ever receiving back. I am tired of being the only one putting forth any effort towards our friendship. I can't believe I was hanging on to this shit!
Needless to say, I think we are done. I guess it took me looking at all of this on paper to realize that you are a bad friend. I think I held on for a long time because you were fun and we used to be so close. Well, I think we both know neither of those is true anymore. I am so sorry that I tried so hard. What a waste of energy!! I am done.
Sincerely,
me
